A Thing of the Past?

Last Tuesday, my mother handed me a page of the local newspaper. A company in our area was looking for employees for the warehouse. Interested, I went online to check the company's website, hoping to get more information about the actual jobs (there was very little information about the jobs themselves in the ad). However, what I found was rather unsettling; or perhaps it would be better to say what I didn't find was rather unsettling. There was nothing listed in the "Career Opportunities" section about either of the positions mentioned in the ad. When checking an online job-listing site that the company linked to, I found even less information. (The company website listed two unrelated job openings, while the job site listed only one.)

This has made me reluctant to apply, as I am not entirely sure what I would be applying for. Another problem is the forms I would be required to fill out. One of the forms asks if I have a disability, and lists major depression as a disability. I'm not sure how to answer that question.

Certainly, in the past I would have said yes, but now, I'm not sure. Certainly, it was a severe problem my last semester of college, and was a major contributing factor to the poor grades that got me dismissed. Having said that, I worry that others may view this as an excuse rather than one of several reasons. Also, I never saw any medical professionals about it, so I have no note from my doctor to back up my claim. There I worry that they might suspect me of falsely claiming problems to boost my chances of getting hired. It should also be pointed out that my depression has gone into remission and, for the most part, stayed there. I wouldn't say that my depression is gone, but I would say that it has gone dormant.

I really should seek out help for this. Logically, I know this. But there is a significant problem: I have no idea what to say. Yes, I had this problem, but no, it's not bothering me now nor has it bothered me on a regular basis for over a year now. But I worry that it may flare up again. That just makes me sound paranoid.

Even though my depression is largely gone from my life, it still can find ways to screw me over.